weather forecast: well folks

its uncharacteristically humid for a sunday night

and overdue cumulation of worry clouds accruing to

procrastination and stress of undone workload

could lead to stormy weather and early showers tonight-

do remember your umbrella in the possibility of

wet weather, or simply cozy under those covers

with a good read and a cuppa hot chocolate (mm) ^^

this is DJ vioL signing off tonight-

do tune in to the best 10 classic hits hosted by the

Muttons! ^^

*smooth music kicks in

vioL does not want to study
for her chemical test tt will take up 12.5percent
of her end of year promos
because her chemistry is lousy,
and she always answers the question wrong.
or makes really careless mistakes in answering.

but she will-
because she wants to be a good testimony in studies.
because she wants to do her best.
because she is sick of seeing sub-passes in her chemistry.

because she knows God will help her. ^^

written by moi; its called
times like these.

insecurity is my disease.
but i find my solace in You-
in times like these.

itsthatspecialfeelingwordscantdescribe.
but,
i just wanted you to know. ^^

its times like these you make me smile
times like these when my troubles
worthwhile
times like these you cure my apathy
times like these you bring me far from

reality.
cant you hear my heart?

its singing.

mm.
sometimes i think emo music is like hypnosis.
it makes you feel good.

but if you know the lyrics-
you re under its mood-swing prone effects after tt.
like avril lavigne! ^^

precisely why the only music i ve been listening to
have been from my two little christian cds =)
hohos.

i wanna compose great songs too! =)
have the melody- now thinking abt the lyrics.
then i ll have harmony!
(alvaro s favourite musical word) hahahas

with the vision, God will bring provision ^^

OH GOD.

cantbelieveijustlostmycoollike thatt...
hellothisis me.
usually calm cool collected...unperturbed by
whispers and temptations from Satan-
(go right back to hell you)

until just now.
totally combusted from a simple sentence to
my sis: since we dont have a dishwasher,
can you wash the dishes today?

i mean, it IS her turn on the duty roster but NO
i have to nag just because i dont want my parents
to spend two thousand dollars and gallons of precious
hot water on a machine tt washes a few pieces
of plastic and porcelain!

economically and environmentally friendly right?
apprarently not!

so now it escalates, to willyoubelieveit-
you dont care about me even if i died!
extra loud rawrs.

another thing:
i m not fasting, i m dieting.

oh the mental frustration....
its really not easy to try to have
faith and unusual act to achieve breakthrough Lord

but i must have faith!!!
everyone, my unusual act: to fast a half day fast
for the rest of my school week.

breakthrough, come on!!!

plausible.
entirely fictitious, but plausible.
check out my horoscope in the ST today-

Unconditional love is like a classic car;
it never goes out of style.
but you can fall out of practice.
you have to train yourself to love people
with a boundless sense of compassion.
Why not practise it on yourself first?

i hardly read the daily horoscope of ST, but today-
woahhs.

*whispers
ithinkGodistryingtotellmesomething ^^

time.
such an intangible measurement,
and something i know i definitely do not have now-

at least,
not to be updating my blog ^^

but i had to!
was really happy since i d be designing my own website
and its going to start with this sentence-

Christianity
is like an earthworm.

Ask me why.

cant let you guys bear the suspense
so heres why ^^

Like love, it is blind.
it can burrow deep into the depths of your heart.
it fertilizes your soul.
it doesnt look much, but it is. =)

wonderful revelation.

and now, back to work!

the peace of God.
so thats what it was!- *check my last update
truly- all things are possible!
and you know what-
my God is Amazing! ^^
was fretting for two days abt the situation-
and then on the very day i prayed about it,
at one o clock am-something happened.

my prayers were answered! =)
oh my goodness~

and today again, he worked a slight
intervention! am thankful Lord ^^
Godanswersprayers!

now for a little self-reflection.
am troubled by this obsession for my
basal jaw. (ok fine- chin!)
on one hand- theres reconstructive surgery.

on the other- my conflicting beliefs.
and the money and risk (20% nerve damage possible!)
then i found an answer in church today-

Gods peace and joy! =)
so,
i m officially going for reconstructive God surgery!
on which part?

my heart and mind.
God will make me beautiful! =)

letmeknowwhenyouseethedifference ^^

ahhh...
its been a while since i felt like this again.

to be absolutely possessed by such
tremendous fear and paralysing worry.

i remember when i felt like this so often-
such familiar symptoms.

not gonna tell what it is.
butthisfeelingalmostbringsback-

a hint of nostalgia.
its like being able to feel how you re being eaten
from the inside-out,
but you re contemplative instead of freaking out.

although this time i m sick of worrying.
i m tired of being so tense with wondering what
the consequences might be and all that.

so this time-
i shant. =)

i think i m gonna trust in my Lord and Saviour instead.
not by my strength,
but by His. ^^

its an enigma.
it really is.

been so busy for the past week that
i didnt have time to update my blog-
though no matter.

istilldont. =)
gosh, what to blog about now?
oh yeas!
friday the thirteenth.
well, i m still in one piece ^^

and today was quite good too! hahahas

mmm...
lately i ve been thinking abt my future.
discussed alot with my girl friends =)
though its even funnier with guys

-do you want want to be a breadwinner wife?
hahahahas!
fyi, i m a feminist- but somehow i cant picture
the scenario =)

and if things go well, i ll be joining the
A*STAR/REAP programme with
4 of my classmates! 1 girl, 4 guys- and a mad
dash to grab one of the 10 copies left.
was laughing so hard- ^^
have a really slim chance of going in, but
am hopeful =)

then joined the Dreamweavers with Guangyuan!
its going to be fun man- ^^
we re making our own websites!

and i m going to pinch myself if i ever
catch myself being blur again! gosh it
was so embarrasing during bio prac-
10 arbitrary units is not 10ml,
and its my own fault! yes, even if mrs
anatha constantly calls on me for doing all
sorts of mishaps, i will keep a cool head,
and not throw the contents of my test tubes
in the sink all at once!

its strange.
the more you want something, the more it
seems so unattainable.

thankfully its times like these when my favourite
F word comes in handy.

Faith.

urghhs.

thisisverybadd.
i need help in my studies, fast!

ineedYourwisdomandguidancesobad. ^^
mmm.
sanguine thoughts. =)

Lord-
your love is more complex than a quaternary protein.
like a zwitterzion, withstanding the caustic changes of
time and bitterness of reality.
more infectious than potent HIV globular virus, and definitely
with its own reverse transcriptase DeoxyriboNucleic Acid.
woven in its own alpha-helix and beta-pleated glory,
but with immense strength in its supple bond to connect
with the lives of thousands, and to change it forever.
no wait, millions and billions!

more than what a mind can fathom.

mm.
the polarity is so great. like the trigonal planar-
the central atom is surrounded by the
Holy Trinity. Valence Shell Pair Electronic Repulsion?

never.

this blog is written in HS. code.
dont blame yourself if you cant understand ^^

the flaws you see in others are only reflections of your own.